You all have heard the quote "When life hands you lemons, make Lemonade." Well SHIT tell life to stop handing me freking GRAPES!
I try soo hard to not let the 'little' things bother me. I try to live my life not stressing over things I cannot change, or that are inevitably going to happen. I just cannot get myself to stop worrying about money.
I work full time, and I babysit every other week for a little extra cash. I can pay all of my bills (barely) and buy groceries and gas with a teeny-tiny bit of spending money. I do not make enough money to buy myself new clothes, or to do things that people my age should be able to do. But I'm ok with that. Sort of. I have food, a house, and clothes. I do fun things every weekend, and I make it a point to buy myself something (very very small) at each paycheck.
Ok. So what I cannot pay for: MY STUPID LEMON OF A FRACKIN CAR. I'm so sick of this damn car. Its a 2001 Ford Taurus. I got a loan in October of '07 for $5000. I pay $115 a month to pay off the loan. That's all fine and dandy. This however is not:
In late fall/early winter '07-the brakes went out. $600
Early Spring '08- Starter died. $200
Early Summer '08-TRANSMISSION DIED. Completely-$1500
To make things even better, about a month ago I noticed that my car was getting hottish. I don't know how better to explain it other than that. The temp. gauge was getting hot when I was driving. So what did I do? Ha nothing. I talked to people and they said it sounded like my thermostat. From what I was told, thermostats were not hard to fix. So I took it in. They quoted me at $115 for a new thermostat. But they were not sure if that's what it was.
Annndd of course it wasn't! Its a broken head gasket or something like that. I can't really remember, my head got all spinny when he told me. I do remember that he said $1500 dollars. Now obviously I cannot pay for that. Luckily my dad is AMAZING and he is going to help me somehow.
I don't even want this car anymore! I noticed that every season something has gone terribly wrong with this car. And I've only had it for a year. If this little pattern keeps up I will have to put money in my car 16 more times! I'm sure that's not going to happen but STILL! I would rather just go lease a new car. One with no problems. Buuttt I can't. I have to pay money on this for 4 more years! BAHH.
Things will all work out. I know that they will. It just gets hard to see it sometimes. Especially when a collection agency calls and tells me I owe $1542 in medical bills. RIGHT after I got off the phone with my dad about the car. Oh well. It will work out.
Tomorrow is Halloween. I LOVVEE Halloween :) Katy and I have cute costumes and there will be pictures next week!